Saturday, August 8, 2009

God's Plan (?)

So over the past month or so, I have been drawing closer to God. It is incredible!!!!! I can honestly say that He has been showing himself to me more than ever.

A few weeks ago, when Dave came back into the picture, I was feeling super anxious about something. I had a dream one night that God was putting me at a fork in the road. 1 way was Dave and the possibility of having another shot at a relationship with him. The other way was the unknown. Over the past months of being single, I have really started getting involved with school, family, and working on me and I felt that growth was what was down the other path. I asked my friends to pray that God would show me which path to choose. After a lot (and I mean a lot) of praying and deliberation, I chose the path of the unknown and told Dave that I just couldn't do "us" again.

So the path of the unknown was what I was heading down. Rewind about 2 months ago when I was working one night in the Media Ministry room at church I came in and say this guy talking with Linda. Linda introduced us and his name was Ron. Her husband Harry came in and started talking about Ron and he chuckled and said," Hey it's Ron and Ronnie." That night when I left, I thought to myself, I kind of hope Ron comes by more often. Not going to lie, but I found him very attractive the moment I met him. Ahhh lust of the eyes, lol.

July rolls around, I go back into serve and lo-and-behold....there is Ron! Linda informs me that the guy who used to help out in there was MIA and had been having some problems at home, so Ron would be filling in for Matt. Now what is that saying, "Ask and ye shall receive." So Ron and I started talking, just kind of small talk. Harry came back in and told me that Ron works in the grocery business as a night receiver (same thing my dad did when he and mom started dating) and started talking him up to me. I love Harry! He reminds me of a conglomeration of both my grandpas. So over the next couple of weeks, Ron and I started talking more during the time we were serving. One night I was going to meet up with some friends and go see a midnight showing of Ghostbusters. Ron asked what I was going to do after church and I told him about the movie, and asked him if he would like to come along. He said yes and I got his number and told him I would call when I found out the details. Well the movie never happened, but we ended up talking for about a good 30 minutes the first time on the phone.

Over the next week or so, we would talk more and more on the phone and at church about anything and everything. There was never any silence over the phone. We were also going to home fellowship on Wednesday nights so that gave us more time to talk. One night he asked if I would like to go out for dinner after service and of course I said yes. I was really enjoying his company and found him extremely well versed and knowledgeable.

So we went to dinner (Saturday) and then went for a walk on the beach. I went home that night and prayed. I honestly was not ready for a relationship as I already had so much on my plate and I was tired of dating. I was tired of investing my time and energy into things that never turned out more that a boyfriend/girlfriend thing. I want to find "The One"! So that night I asked God that if I should peruse this as more than a friendship that he would show me. Now up to this point in my walk, I had never really seen anything that I had asked God for, except for Caleb. I am sure He was showing me Himself all the time, but I just never noticed it.

The next day (Sunday) was just a typical day and when Ron texted me he called me "my". I was at the beach with Terri and the text he sent was "How is my beach bunny today?" I thought, why is he referring to me as "my"? I ignored it and it just kind of continued.

So comes Tuesday and after my morning study, I thought I would "test" God. FYI....never test God unless you are ready to have it confirmed! I was talking to God and told him that I found myself growing fond of Ron and enjoyed our time and conversations. I asked Him that I not date anyone else except my future husband and that if Ron was "The One" then he would show me in a way that I would not be able to ignore or put off as anything else, like I did with the "my" thing. I went about my day and I came home from lunch. Ron had worked 3am-Noon and he called me when he got home. He told me that he was talking to his co-worker about me and informed me that he told her something that would probably freak me out. Jokingly I asked if I needed to sit down, and he said it wouldn't be a bad idea. I thought to myself "great, just as I'm starting to dig him, he's going to tell me that he just wants to be friends". So I prepared myself for the worst. What came over the phone, still blows me away! He told me that his friend noticed a change in him over the past few weeks and wanted to know what was up. He told her that he was talking and hanging out with me. He showed her a picture I had sent to him of Hunny and I, he paused for a second and said, "Then I told her that I feel that you are my future wife." (OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG! was going through my head!!!!!) I started to cry! But of course they were happy tears!

Within 5 hours, God answered my prayers! I was shocked at what Ron had said. We had only talked and hung out maybe 2 or 3 times. No hugging, hand holding, nothing had happened between us. Nothing physical at all!!!!!!! Nothing like this had ever happened in my life...EVER! What man tells a girl that after only knowing her for 2 weeks! I then told him of what I prayed for that morning. He started laughing. I was completely blown away!

Now each and every day, I pray that God continues to give us confirmations that we are meant to be together and that we are each others help mates, but I don't know if it gets more clear than that. He reminds me so much of my dad in his laid back attitude. And you know that girls tend to look for things in their mates that their dad's possessed. I mean he even has the same job as my dad did. So I will just keep praying and walking along the path of this unknown and see where it leads. Who knows, maybe it'll lead down an aisle towards Ron and Pastor Mike :)

1 comment:

Deborah said...

Honey,
God knows about it.
Love ya.
Mom