Wednesday, April 16, 2008

The Wedding

Good morning! So it was a beautiful weekend up in Yosemitie. There are absolutely no words to describe what it felt like to be up there. I saw a quote that said "There are no words to describe what is felt be the soul." And man-o-man is that the truth! It felt like I was in God's hands all weekend.

Bridialveil Falls

Coming out of the tunnel

The Centinel

I spent a lot of the weekend by myself and it gave me time to reflect and to sleep. I have this rash on my arms and legs and it really gets to me so I have to take Benadryl and it knocks me out! But when I wasn't sleeping I took a bike ride around the valley floor for a bit and then came back and grabbed dad. I felt like a little kid again riding bikes with her daddy. We had a wonderful time and talk about things that were going on in my life, in his and about the wedding.

Dad and I at Mirror Lake

Saturday morning April 12th we all met up at the shuttle stop and off we went to the wedding. Bill and Holly have been together for 5 years and knew eachother in high school! They took us to the path that actually went on the other side of where dad and I took our picture to get married. It was really cool. As we were hiking up the trail we came upon some deer and they followed us up the there very spot where Bill and Holly got hitched.

Mr. and Mrs. William Cocking

I want them to be happy as much as I would want to be happy and as happy as my parents are. On the 1st of May my parents will be married 34 years and have been together for 37 (I think).

My wonderful parents! This is what I want to look like someday with my husband

Monday, April 7, 2008

Only the first week of April

As I write this I am back at my parents house getting ready to head off to bed before all 3 of us head up to Yosemite for my brother's wedding! little brother is getting married before I do. Yes, to be brutally honest it hurts and it sucks that he gets to go through this major part of his life before I do, but this is just how God is having things work out.

Since the beginning of April I have learned so many things, and go figure it's only the 9th. I have learned what true friends are. My old roommate and friend of 4 years, Brad, bailed on me and the lease April 1st (long story cut super short). And it seems like all of my exes who still have my number have all been in contact with me since he left.

But a great thing about the roomie leaving is that I am now talking to the guy I am still madly in love with, Dave! He knows Brad and warned me about him while we were dating last summer. I was stupid and went behind Dave's back and still kept on talking to Brad and that put a huge wedge between Dave and I. But over the past 4 days we have seen each other and talked like we were still dating even after an 8 month split. We are still trying to protect our hearts, more so Dave than myself, but I really hope that everything works out and he is the one that I was meant to be with.

And since the beginning of April there is a passage from John 15:1-8 that my mom pointed out to me after I had already read it and thought it over. It talks about how Jesus is the grapevine and God is the gardener. And as every gardener does, he cuts off the dead branches and burns those, and on the good branches, he still cuts them back so they produce even more fruit. I know I'm not a bad branch, so maybe God is just cutting me way back and down to nothing so I can prepare myself for my life changing trip to Israel and be able to fully experience Him! Man it hurts but I know that good things can only come with suffering.