OK, OK I get it....I need to start praying again and harder than before.
Last night with Pastor Abel's' message on prayer and how we need to continually run the race of endurance no matter how hard or uncomfortable it may seem to us now, we know that it is for the betterment of our relationship with you.
You have given me the book of Psalms to start studying in my daily devotional and today it was Psalm 5. David is praying for you judgement against those who accuse him of things while is on the run from his son and his accusers. He asks you to judge them fairly for the false accusations, while protecting him along with allowing your followers to continually praise you and to surround them like a shield in their trouble times.
And then....in the Jesus Calling book I received at Women's Retreat today's reading you say:
"Do not be discouraged by the difficulty of keeping your focus on Me. I know that your heart;s desire is to be aware of My Presence continually. This is a lofty goal; you aim toward it but never fully achieve it in this life. Don't let feelings of failure weigh you down. Instead, try to see yourself as I see you. First of all, I am delighted by your deep desire to walk closely with Me through your life. I am please each time you initiate communication with Me. In addition, I notice the progress you have made since you first resolved to live in My Presence.
When you realize that your mind has wandered away from Me, don't be alarmed or surprised. You live in a world that has been rigged to distract you. Each time you plow your way through the massive distractions to communicate with Me, you achieve a victory. rejoice in these tiny triumphs, and they will increasingly light your days."
Thank you for showing me where I need to work on our relationship. I know that over the past month I feel like I have been lacking something and looking back, I know it was the wonderful communication that we had. Thank you for using these things to show me how to get back on track with you.
I love you Lord,