2009 is over and 2010 has started

Well, it has been a while since I last blogged, but once again this year I plan on blogging more (we will see how it goes).

Last year was a true year of finding myself. I started off 2009 with going back to school online at Calvary Chapel Online. I loved it! Surprisingly I passed Hermenutics (Bible interpretation) and then started Genesis. Unfortunaetly I was unable to finish that class, but I plan on getting back into it. I really enjoyed finally studying the bible.

I spent a lot of time working on myself and getting healthy. I started 2009 by finally seeing a gastroenterologist about my chronic diarrhea (yep, I'm going there with this). I was finally diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis. So this means for the rest of my life, I will be on anti-inflammatories and dealing with a "funny tummy". Also, I had been seeing Kyle my trainer for about a year and I had made huge strides in loosing my weight! By June-July, I was 10 lbs away from reaching my goal of 170 (coming down from 230)! By September, I met and exceeded my goal settling in at about 165-170 lbs :) The last time I was this weight/size was 5 years ago when I moved back from Colorado. Yes the working out and eating right helped, but the UC was a huge factor in loosing the weight. My birthday gift to myself was I learned how to surf. I was only able to get up once on the board in a 2 days span, but I so enjoyed it and I cannot wait to go back out this summer!!!!!

I also met Ron. A man I truly feel is my match from God. We both feel that we are eachothers help mates. It is a hard relationship though. He works nights, which a lot of the time makes me feel very lonely and like I am single. I see him only 1-2 times a week and only for a few hours. We are just taking it one day at a time and seeing where God leads us. He knows that he wants to marry me, and I feel the same, and he knows that the ball is in his court ;-)

And once again, cancer strikes my family again. My aunt Jamie was diagnosed with breast cancer and lymphoma. She had a lumpectomy and is currently going through chemo. It is hard on all of us, but I know that it has the hardest affect on Jamie and my mom. Both of their parents passed because of cancer. On the up side, Jamie can change her "new hair" on a daily basis depending on her moods. It also gives me motivation to keep myself healthy. Knowing that I am predisposed for cancer (and moreso with my UC) it gives me that little kick in the butt to stay healthy.

So for this year I am really planning on moving out of the apartment and REALLY want to move into a place of my own out in Oceanside. I love being close to home, but I hate Escondido. everyone and everything I love is out in Oceanside and I hate driving 30 mins just to see them.

So I just pray that God leads me to where I am supposed to be and where is best for me!

As requested...

So here is an update with everything that is going on (per Cindy's request).

I am officially in a relationship (yes again!) but with an amazing guy, Jason. We have been together for a little over a month and I am now realizing what a true gentleman is. So many times in the past I thought I had found one, but they only turned out to be toads. Jason is everything, at least so far, I have been looking for in a guy. He is kind, sweet, caring, funny, opens pretty much every door for me, a true heart for God, we have so many of the same interests, understanding, a good cook, and if I need some time to take care of things he gives it to me. He treats me the way my dad and brother treat their wives, and that is something I have been looking for for a very, VERY long time. We have given our relationship over to God and ask Him everyday to allow us to keep Him in the center of it, and to continue to bless the relationship. Of course we are still in the total "puppy love" phase that every relationship goes through, but I am very much in LIKE with him, lol. I am holding on the the "L" word for as long as I can. It seems like every past relationship, it has come out too early on and then it sets the bar so much higher. So as things progress, I just pray that God blesses us and continues to shine through our relationship. We have a great support system in the church as well as both of our families, so who knows where this might lead.

My weight loss........I DID IT!!!!! I reached my goal of 200 lbs! I cannot remember the last time I was at this weight and was healthy! I got on the scale a few weeks ago and I was completely shocked. I had never seen that weight on my own personal scale before. I have dropped 2 pant sizes and I have lost a total of 30 lbs in 3 months. YEAH ME! This morning I set a new goal of another 30 lbs by Feb. 20. That would put me at 170lbs and with me being healthy this time, I think it is a good weight. Last time I weighed that much, I had recovered from getting so sick from my pregnancy. So, as things progress, I'll update my wonderful and trying progress.

And with Thanksgiving coming up, I am making it pretty much on my own. My parents are helping at our churches homeless outreach that day and so I get to babysit the turkey and finish up dinner. Thankfully mom will be there in the morning to help me get the bird in the oven, but I'm a pro at greasing him up an cleaning him. I've done that for as long as I can remember, and I cannot wait to show my kids how to do the same. And since I am dating Jason, I thought it would be nice to invite him over for dinner. But it would be a little awkward to invite him and not his sister and brother in law who are currently living with him and also his mom who doesn't really have anyone to spend the day with. So for my first turkey day dinner, I'm going to be cooking for 7 people, YIKES! I am almost positive funny stories and situations will ensue.

Long overdue!

OK so I know I said that I would blog more a few months ago, but it seems like I barely have ANY free time! I mean I have time to do the things that I have to do (not necessarily want to do) but I cannot believe it is almost the end of October.

So the things that have been going on:

• I am still able to make time for me :) That was one of the things that I was missing out on over the past year. It seemed like I was always doing something for other people. I am still fully enjoying my scrapbooking class that I am taking online and this weekend I am going to try and catch up from last week and this week. The calls is a 12 week class that shows us different techniques for page layouts and I really need that since I feel like I get stuck in a rut with my pages so I am hoping that this class will get my creative juices flowing :) Here are my first few pages:

My cover page

Week 1: Balance

• I am working out more and getting so much closer to my goal weight of 200 lbs! Let's just say I've always liked buying clothes, but I've never HAD TO buy clothes so often! I only have 5 more pounds to loose and then comes my next goal of 170 lbs! I can do it!
• (Oct 10-12) Women's retreat was last weekend up in Murrieta at the Calvary Chapel Bible College, and that is a beautiful campus! It is like a resort, I don't see how the kids there study! I would want to spend all of my time in the natural hot springs. The theme this year was Corinthians 13:13 - And the greatest of these things is Love! It was such a great and much needed time for me. I confessed everything to God and I know that He has forgiven me and I have finally forgiven myself for the things I've done over the past year that I was very ashamed of.
• (10-4) And ironically the weekend of the retreat was the weekend Randy was supposed to come out to visit. But just like clockwork he called to tell me that he had to reschedule his trip out to tomorrow. He called the week before on the day my mom reminded me of the retreat. When she told me that the retreat was the same weekend I was honestly torn as to what to do. I had been looking forward to the retreat for a long time, but I was also looking forward to seeing Randy pretty much 1 last time. God showed me that he was not supposed to come out that weekend by Randy's phone call. He called to tell me that he needed to change the date because his cancer has come back. He told me that he moved his trip from last weekend to coming out tomorrow, but surprise, surprise, I have no idea if or when he will be coming. So I'm not planning on it at all and will go on with my life. If he does then the does. If he doesn't I will not be shocked or disappointed at all.
• (10-5) And (I know repetition, sorry Cindy) the following day after Randy called, I went to church and was telling my parents what was going on with him. My mom got on her knees and asked God to forgive her of all of the mean things she thought about Randy. I also asked God to completely remove any sort of feelings that I might still have for him and only allow me to view him as a friend. After church I was talking to my parents and my friend Belinda about things, and I turned towards the front of the church and up comes a guy I worked with about 12 years ago at Lucky's.
• (Still 10-5) OK, this one needs another point :) Jason is a prayer warrior at church and we kind of see each other each week at the end of service because I sit in the same spot and he stands at the same place each week and we kind of make eye contact, but I usually leave right after church. Last time I saw him he was dating someone, and honestly, I had a big crush on him when we worked together. Anyways so, I was talking to my parents and Jason comes walking up to me. We started talking and of course my wonderful mom notices that I am talking to a guy. At church. And we obviously know each other. What more could a mom ask for, lol. So I introduce my parents to him and mom asks if he was going to the worship service that we have the 1st Sunday of the month because I was going with my friend April. He said yes and that he normally goes by himself. Mom said, "Well now you won't have to since Ronnie will be there!" I blush, Jason blushes and my mom is beaming from ear to ear. So long story shorter...we went out to dinner after service with April and after we were done, he walked me to my car and asked for my number. YEAH!!!!! We have been seeing each other for almost 2 weeks (awww tomorrow) and who would of thought that we had so much in common. I mean even down to foods and our favorite amusement parks (Disneyland all the way). OK, I will stop there because I will just gush about him, lol

So that is pretty much what has been going with me over the past few weeks, since I last wrote, but it seems like it is all in a very small time frame.